dinsdag, maart 30, 2004

tebaaaak gue yang mana...ahahaha..gua dibanding skarang..tampangnya,mudaan di situ padahal beda staon doang..huhuhuhuh...itu waktu gw kelas 1..ehehe..
yang pada nonton "inikah rasanya" dan yang pada sering liat iklan pocari sweat, tau doms yang sebelah kanannya baju kuning...heahieahieahiea...kabar2nya..dia sombong tuh skarang..ahahahh....biasalahh....aehihaeihaei..

c yaa!!!

cef ... yammering out of control at 4:31:00 a.m. ::

maandag, maart 29, 2004

Finally, what do you want to be when you grow up?

Not interested in growing up

cef ... yammering out of control at 4:45:00 a.m. ::

zondag, maart 28, 2004

gue sakit...
tapi ga tau sakit apa..dibilang sakit fisik, bukan..
dibilang sakit internal semacam jantung,dkk bukan..
sakit kepala juga ngga..
pilek,nggak...
sakit apa ya gue?

cef ... yammering out of control at 7:14:00 a.m. ::

donderdag, maart 25, 2004

jack : "pop quiz! how long we've been friends?"

Pilot : "forever"

(itu bukan karena gw salah nulisnya, tapi emang gituuu! di pelemnya juga!)
abis nonton highway...
2 orang sahabatan dari kecil..dan disaat2 kegencet pasti ngomong "pop quiz!" ahaha.. kocak deh..kapan gw dapet yang kayak gitu ya? wih..huhuhu...

anjing gw mati lagi... :((( gw ngga nemu poto-nya euy..huhuhu..tapi nyang pasti lucu, di jidat-nya ampe idung ada garis putihnya..hihihi..keren...ahahaha..udah ntar gw sedih lageh...yang pasti dia sakit jantung..kasian ya..anjing lho padahal..umurnya baru 3 taon.. huhuuhuuu..

dah ah .. c u...

(update)

i'm taking some test.. :D


avoidant


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
brought to you by Quizilla

---> yep!!


Sad... You use the darkness to hide yourself from
the world. Something has really hurted you,
which made you turn dark. Darkness makes you
feel save and that is why you stay there.


What kind of dark person are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

---->One last time... And i'll try not to cry... [that's so me]


You're a natural born trouble-maker. You hate
authority and do everything you can to get
around the law, or in some cases, break it.
Naturally stubborn, you hardly ever sway once a
decision is made. Your nature is fiery and
courageous, and always out-going. You love
attention and usually have kinky fetishes
you're not afraid to explore. People either
love you or hate you.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
brought to you by Quizilla

---> yeah right..ahahah

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
brought to you by Quizilla

---> yey! gw udah sepantasnya ternyata umur 16..ahahah..inner child lho!!


Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)


What Emotion Dominates you?
brought to you by Quizilla

---> weitz....bener banget yang gw bold!!!!!! (percaya ngga percaya ini test bener banget! ih,koq dia tau ya?!?!?)


You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

---> wekz...Vampires are the best friends to have...mati gua..


Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end.Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.

Image is a painting by Natalya Nesterova,
source:ca80.lehman.cuny.edu/.../
images/fallen_angel.jpg


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla

---> untuk seseorang, kamu bener ttg sayapku yang patah..hmmm..kuis ini koq kayaknya bener smua ya???? bleah..

udah ah..kebanyakan test ntar blog gw, susah dibuka..ahahaha..tapi asik bow..*cari2 test lagi*

(/updated)

cef ... yammering out of control at 6:51:00 p.m. ::

woensdag, maart 24, 2004

giliran mo bereksperimen, adobe gw error... giliran nyalain adobe kompi jadi hang semua! ngikutin jejak drimwiver gw d..anjrit..bete banget... x(

gw dapet finch - letters to u yang akustiknya beda..wuih..anjrit...makin nge-don deh gw..!!

tadinya gw mau cerita waktu gw MOS...alias Masa Orientasi Siswa yang sucks itu..
terus gw juga mau cerita pas gw di-karyakan, gara2 bolos massal.. ahahahah..

jadi inget kelas 1 gw ancur banget d..huhu..satu contohnya : masa tiap pelajaran kimia keluar
padahal gw udah bikin pe-er, bilangnya "ehehe,buk saya belom bikin buk" terus ibu-nya bilang "yang ngga bikin pr keluar! 2x lagi kamu begitu felicia, kamu ngga usah ikut plajaran saya, semuanya juga begitu ngga cuman felicia" ahahahaha...tapi ampe akhir taon, gw juga tetep keluar mulu pas kimia..ehehehe...gertak cabe doang, huh! fuck me [nama aslinya Patmi, tapi di plesetin ma anak2 jadi Fuck me] ehehehe..katanya taon ini dia lebih ngeselin.. untung gw dah ga dstu *ngelus dada*

yang dulu paling dikenal, ellen, gw, Garda [yang udah meninggal itu], sama Sukanda... soalnya gw sering madol ma ellen, lagipula gw ketua kelas...hihihi..gmana ngga mo dikenal? aahahhaha..

waktu MOS..hmmm diceritainnya ntar aja deh...
gw lagi libur nih, anak kelas 3 try out..ehehehe..enak yak. gw kira guru2nya dah bosen ngajar gw..hihihi...

c u..

cef ... yammering out of control at 5:49:00 a.m. ::

maandag, maart 22, 2004

horeeeeee...acara jenny jones adaaaaa!!! ahahahaha...ternyata saking gw ngga sabarannya nunggu acara bole selesai, jenny jones ada jam segini...ahahahahha...alangkah senangnya... gw nonton dulu yaa...adu adu banyak nyamuk...

btw, where are u friends? i need u...

gw janji gw posting banyak, kalo kegalauan ini dah bubar yak...
[cieeeeeeeee bahasa guwaaaa!!!]

the only truth, suffering --- gw lupa lirik lagunya sapa...hehehehe....

cef ... yammering out of control at 2:02:00 a.m. ::

vrijdag, maart 19, 2004

(Quit: Dan penderitaan adalah penderitaan, tak ada argumen lain lagi mengenai hal tersebut)

cef ... yammering out of control at 4:59:00 a.m. ::

donderdag, maart 18, 2004

'cause i am due for a miracle
i'm waiting for a sign
i'll stare straight into the sun
and i won't close my eyes
'til i understand or go blind

thrice - stare at the sun..

Metathesiophobia- Fear of changes

Gee..gw bener2 takut sama perubahan...dan kayak kata2nya thrice...
i'm due for a miracle..i'm waiting for a sign...
supaya perubahan2 itu ga dateng ke gw kayak skarang ini
damn..berat banget...

cuman satu deh yang mau gw tanyain, kenapa?

jrit...!!

cef ... yammering out of control at 1:57:00 a.m. ::

woensdag, maart 17, 2004

Try - Nelly Furtado

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

tiap liriknya dibaca deeeeeeeee...nelly ini kalo nikin lirik slalu asik...
waktu yang di powerless : "saw my face in the magazine, make it whiter than it seems"
yang di lagu ini yang asik itu yang "we are free in our love" sama yang "And I have lived so many lives though I'm not old" wihh..asik banget dah..ck ck ck...jadi seneng gw ama dia...ahahahahahhaha...bodo ah...saya penikmat musik ini..

o iya...ibuk yang satu ini emang TOP abeeeeesshhhhh....klik aja gambar di bawah...dan dl aja mp3-nya...



"Disce quasi semper victurus ; vive quasi cras moriturus"
[Learn as if you were going to live forever; live as if you were going to die tomorrow]

cef ... yammering out of control at 4:52:00 a.m. ::

maandag, maart 15, 2004

sapa yang sangka gede-nya jadi



tampangnya ngga nyambung abis...ck ck ck ck....

cef ... yammering out of control at 1:38:00 a.m. ::

zondag, maart 14, 2004

dingin [tumben jakarta dingin abiss....] ,laper, pegel, sakit...

perfect!!

cef ... yammering out of control at 1:39:00 a.m. ::

donderdag, maart 11, 2004

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support

(depeche mode - somebody)


[update]

What does your name mean?

A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
D You have trouble trusting people.
E You are a very exciting person.
I You are always smiling & making others smile.
F Everyone loves you.
G You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H You are not judgemental.
I You are always smiling & making others smile.
J Jealousy.
K You like to try new things.
L Love is something you deeply believe in.
M Success comes easily to you.
N You like to work, but you always want a break.
O You are very open-minded.
P You are very friendly and understanding.
Q You are a hypocrite.
R You are a social butterfly.
S You are very broad-minded.
T You have an attitude, a big one.
U You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V You have a very good physical and looks.
W You like your privacy .
X You never let people tell you what to do .
Y You cause a lot of trouble.
Z You're always fighting with someone

mine :
F Everyone loves you [ow reallyyy?!?!]
E You are a very exciting person [:">]
L Love is something you deeply believe in (bleah! yeah right!)
I You are always smiling & making others smile [ that's meee!!]
C You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.[eh?]
I You are always smiling & making others smile
A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.[hooh!! bangged..]

[/updated]

cef ... yammering out of control at 6:45:00 p.m. ::

woensdag, maart 10, 2004

what good and what's not about life...

Life is sweet when your parents hug,kiss, and give you nice presents on your birthday, butlife is a cage when they keep told you what to do and when you feel necessary to disagree with them, they start to punish you.

Life is cool when you find a cool fashion style that you really think will fit to yourself, life is grey when still.. you feel uncomfortable with yourself whether because your fat body or flat chest or cause those stupid pimples.

Life is fun when you had a great time hangin' out with your friends, life is sucks so hard when afterward you got back home and find yourself feelin empty and alone..

Life is beautiful when a girl beside you said she loves you so and promise will always be there beside you no matter what, life feel like come to and end when she left you for some guy who have a cool car, much better than your old honda 70.

Life is so easy when you had enough money to have everything and buy every stuff you wanted, life is tough when you don't have any cent and there's no one you can count on to help you out.

Life is just great when you finally graduate from your boring university and add a title in your name, life seems unfair when you still unemployed weven after you work your ass so hard looking around for job

Life is cheerfull when you decide to marry the woman you love and spend the rest of your life with her, life is depressing when you continously fighting and arguing with her, even about little stuff

Life is a gift when your first child is born which is the best thing you ever had, life is boring when your baby keeps annoying you with his/her cry and always bugging you like when you have to change his/her diaper in the middle of your favorite TV Show.

You once told life is a cage when your parents keep telling you what to do and what's the right and the wrong thing to you. But you never realized that you are doin' exactly the same thing to your kids!!You always feel so free and relieved when you can get out of your house and left your parent at home and now in your old age your kids do exactly the same thing to you and then you know how suck that is
Life is begin when your first tear explode from your tiny mouth. Since that you can fill that missing blank about life with every noun,verb,and adjective you wanted to. It's not about what word in it but it's more about how to live life without regret it..

take it from Inner Garden Zine #2 versi cetak..

hey Tamz, finally u can understand what i've wrote... heuheuheuheu...

cef ... yammering out of control at 4:26:00 a.m. ::

maandag, maart 08, 2004

Ever So Sweet

I just found a friend
in one of your lies
to treat me so nice
i can't believe my bones
when they say so many things
they tell me i am fine
believe me i, i try

Oooh oooh oooh...

Ever so sweet...
you make this seem
the way things go
its not my fault
and i'll miss
i'll miss you so good
through all of those nights
we lost our way back home

Ever so sweet
you baked it in cakes for me
were you left behind
it hurts my teeth
bringing the past
with the postcard you sent for me
every night
it brings me right back down

Can't you see the wall you built for me
can't you see the wall you built for me
can't you see the wall you built for me

Cause we're not special
we're not special
we're not special

Well i'm not special
i'm not special

Ever so sweet
you baked it in cakes for me
were you left behind
it hurts my teeth
bringing the past
with the postcard you sent for me
every night
It brings me right back down

ternyata oh ternyata...ni lagu enak bangettttttttt...huhuhuhuhuhuhu....gue banget....huehuiehuiehuie...
oh iya...happy belzdae buat kk gw hehuehuiehuiehie... aw aw...dah tua ihh situuu...bwakakakakak...

huaaaaaahhhmmmmm..............aduh ngantuk...mau tidur...tapi seperti postingan kemaren..mata ini ingin melihat lebih...lebih dari kemampuannya... meskipun dia sudah lelah,ia bersikeukeuh untuk tetap membuka,dan menyebabkan seluruh badan ini menjadi lemah [ditulis lagihhh??!?!??!?!]

banyak yang nyuruh gw tidur...biar gw ngga lemes...tapihh...gw batu ternyata...hueheuheuhue...
ya udah...kawan-kawan...saya tidur dulu yaaa...

!!!!...mana bubbles-nyaaaaaaaa...!!!! huh..

P.S : ada kata2 keren yang masih keren aja...huekekekeke..."Tetapi itulah keindahan dan keheningan, senyuman redup penuh penderitaan, dan hal tersebut tak pernah berubah, tetap, serta indah dalam raut wajahnya. Demikianlah pepohonan tampak saat musim gugur, saat daun keemasan terakhir melayang jatuh, ketika bumi menerimanya untuk tetap hidup dalam peleburannya dengan tanah. Itu adalah sebuah derita, sebuah kesedihan, kesedihan yang terdalam--tetapi tak ditemukan keberadaan perlawanan, tak ada penolakan. Ia adalah persetujuan, pendaftaran, kepatuhan. Ia adalah kekuatan pengetahuan dan persetujuan tanpa pertanyaan."

cef ... yammering out of control at 3:11:00 a.m. ::

zondag, maart 07, 2004

ehm...ehm...
tadi ga jadi ketemu ma hanih banih tantih.....uhuhuhu...kesiangan bangunnya..dia dah ada di ujung dunia..
terus gw terpaksa masih gentayangan jam segini untuk download vidio live-nya story of the year,tanggung tinggal 94% dan masih berjalan...
gw dikasih tau url punkrockvids.som dari si kesit..dia selalu bilang lagi dl vidio..eh kmarena pas terakhir ketemu, dia kasih url-nya...eh banyak juga vidio-nya emo...hehehe...langsung gw semangat..
gw jabanin ampe jam segini jugak!!

terus gw juga dl lagu-nya "the early november - ever so sweet" nih yang ngasih rekomendasi gw cekek ntar...
lagunya bikin bunuh diri..gw gak se-emo ituhhh!! emo sayah yang masih ada smangat...!! vokalisnya masih bisa nyekrim...

uh..kalo liat emocore.us, judulnya broken heart since the early nineties... hehehe..

ini donlotan tinggal 95% dan tidak ada tanda tanda kemajuan...bah..minta di kepret..
eh,angin di luar kenceng banget euy...sayah ngga pernah nih di luar jam segini...biasanya di dalem kelas ..
[bwek bagi yang brasa >P]

gw rada kurang istirahat niyhhh [bukan cari perhatian!] tapi sepertinya jam istirahat gw nga sebanding sama jam gw aktif...hehehe...terus gara2 gw emo pisan gini,gw jadi ngga bisa tidur kemaren siang..hehe.. gara2-nya..pas gw merem, eh tiba2 otak gw ngomong "an agreement called forever" gilaaaaaa....ngemo banget kan gw? terus gw jadi melek, mikir kenapa gw mikir kayak gitu,sampe akhirnya gw ilfil untuk tidur...mata ini ingin melihat lebih...lebih dari kemampuannya... meskipun dia sudah lelah,ia bersikeukeuh untuk tetap membuka,dan menyebabkan seluruh badan ini menjadi lemah... ini aja skarang maag gw sakit...muncul ilang muncul ilang... moga2 gw ngga ada sakit maag deh..yang skali ini cuman karena telat makan ajah...

euh,angin di luar kenceng pisan...adem pula...jakarta masih ada sisi lembut juga ya...

udah...mo tidur...dadahhh...

...i'm not sleep with my bubbles last night...hoping that i will sleep with them tonight...

cef ... yammering out of control at 6:15:00 a.m. ::

zaterdag, maart 06, 2004

eh ehhhhh....
nyadar gak? tempat komen gw baruww?? heuheuehue...soalnya yang di haloscan..account gw ilang gitu..hueheuhe...
terus gw lagi demen lagunya story of the year - until the day i die... enak banget dah!! hari ini dengerin 10 kali lebih ada..
gw benerin blog juga dengerinnya gituan...hehehehe....uw uw...
terus kalo ngga dengerin story of the year, gw dengerin saosin yang seven years [kena racunnya iyok nih gue...]...kalo ngga gw dengerin silverstein [yang ini dari yoyo]..

[hayooo...bagi yang jeli ada perubahan di bagian about me...hihihi...]
yapp!! screamo letaknya jadi di depan punk...jadi punk setelah screamo..maklumlah..saya ini kan jiwanya masih labil..
masih suka gonta ganti kesukaan...contohnya bisa diliat dari lay out gw...gonta ganti mulu kan? huehueheuhue....
tapi gw masih seneng koq ama lagu2nya punk...hehehe...cuman ya itu...screamo itu mantab....hahahahah...

eh gw sadar nih ya...kalo gw tuh trendsetter ato gw-nya yang trendish?[kayak kata si DHaNiDruNk]
soalnya dulu, pas gw suka ma punk...eeeeeeee....die die pade demen ame punk
nah sekarang, giliran gw ngemo [nge-emo] gini smuah smuah pade ngemo juga!
nah lhooooo....brarti gw trendy yak? hahahaha....lama2 Hc nih...terus lama2 metal...lama2 brutal death metal...
bwakakakaka...trash-nya kapan ya? *lirik nana* hueheuheuhue...

ei, sayah lagi seneng berpujangga nih [jgn2 bentar lagi nge-trend! aih sayah ge-er pisan!]
tanya asep yang kena imbas bahasa pujangga gw.. bwakakkakaka...apanye bahasa pujangga...!!! hahahahaha....

aduh aduh...berikan saya masukan lagu emo lagi domsss...jangan yang emo beneur ya...yang screamo..
yang rada2 ada scream-nyah...hihiihhi...

ehhhhhh hayuuuuuu...add sayah di frenster [aduh telat bgt gw! abis gw baru ngerti frenster...dulu2 gw ngga suka dan ilfil gitu buka friendster.com abis oragnya jelek2...bwek]
imel sayah masih yang xpembangkangx@yahoo.com kalo di sana...add gua add gua!!!! ntar testimoni-nya gw tulis yang bagus2 dehhh

aduh ini lagu paan sih...VANILLA...enak juga kaga tampang sangar...UNGU juga tuh...ngga nyadar diri...
musik super nge-pop,dandan super gothic...bah..knapa orang2 itu ngga sadar ya kalo dia bakal dicela??

dah ah...mo tdur...uh...ntar haru bangun jam 12..untuk ketemu ma hanih banih tantih ... [ngikut si Rojak di gengsi gede-gedean...bwaakakkaka...asli lucu banget dah tuh orang!!]

cheers!!!

... sleep with million bubbles again tonight ...

cef ... yammering out of control at 4:36:00 a.m. ::