Anxiety, sleepless night, spite and slander which undermine confidence. Suffering that is for eventual good such as putting up with painful treatment in order to get better. Female health problems, and possibly self-punishment and guilt.
"Apa gunanya kalau kebenaran berdiri di hadapan saya, dingin dan telanjang. tidak peduli apakah saya mengenalinya atau tidak, dan malah membuat saya takut dan bukannya percaya?"