maandag, november 20, 2006 ~ tentang tidak bisa tidur.

what ?
udah nelan double dose of xanax dan masih bisa ngetik dengan normal.

hm.. there must be something wrong.
and the worst is, its in my home.
and it's my dad.
do you know how i get to sleep last night ?
writing "fuck you, dad" as much as my anger guides me.
:)
people with problem.
and my problem is, my dad.
dont you lecture me, about his sacrifies.
he sacrifies nothing.
about all the work he's done for my family, bullshit, it's for his ego.
what the heck, dont you lecture me, period.

after all, i'm the one who lives here (read and feels like : hell)
i'm the one who feels all the burden that he gave me.
my ears hurt because the tv's volume gets to its max.
dont care.

and the worst is yet to come.
yes, i cant get out from here.
it's my mom request.
i couldn't refuse my mom's wish.
after all, she's my mom, right ?
who married the wrong, ego-centric, ego-maniac ass..

maybe i'll get to sleep in no time after i'm finish typing.

and the stupid thing is, i wrote it here.
a personal matter, that maybe you dont need to know, or dont want to know

cigarillos, anyone ?

cheers !

cef ... yammering out of control at 1:12:00 a.m. ::